A blogger that blogs annually

Funny how a year passes swiftly, i decided to check my blog just to see that the lastest post was still last year and thats exactly first month of the year 2014. I woke up full of thoughts which in any way i dont know where to pour, so i helped myself with my favorite coffee and sat in front of the computer. i reread my previous posts and its quite amazing how in every single day i feel nothing is changing but when i looked back a year has done a lot of changing actually.
Two Zero One Four. remarkable. enigmatic. bittersweet. somehow a bit tragic but it ended beautifully like i never expected. Life has taught me a lot last year, it took me very long years to learn to love myself first before i can love others. Its a cliche but i never taught this cliche would hit me and slap me in my face. Long story short, i got my first heartbreak last year and as any typical heartbroken person would do i went through the process of denial, isolation, anger, depression (boo-ho!) but not a little longer finally comes acceptance..:) I gathered too much strength from Him and lifted my chin up, im too beatiful too be sad (gemma!). A very bright rainbow showed up after my storm, i got myself a job, i met a lot of happy friends, i was able to see a different side of life which He wanted to show me -- a happier one. Not a little longer, a new love has found me too and right before it started i was the happiest. It was indeed one hell of a roller coaster ride last year and i came out stronger thus this year 2015 i promise to make it awesome.
To start off, here are just a few photos that made my first two months of my 2015 :)

this ends my year :)

1:What did you do in 2013 that you’d never done before?
✯-i got a lot of adventures last 2013, i climbed the top of the mountain, i bathe in a heavy waterfalls, i sank 20 feet down the sea (helmet diving) to see the marvels of the ocean, i applied for a job and qualified. I've never done these things..:D and im expecting more of like this in 2014.

2:Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
✯-Yes, happily i did..2013 was a great year for me, i traveled few nearby places and enjoyed my youth.
3:Did anyone close to you give birth?
✯-Apparently, a lot of my friends gave birth in 2013 and it scares me like am i the only one left not getting pregnant? is there something wrong with me?.haha.
4:Did anyone close to you die?
✯-PAUL WALKEER!!! :(
5:What countries did you visit?
✯-ow, Paris and France..in my dreams of course :D
6:What would you like to have in 2014 that you lacked in 2013
✯-moooneey!hahaha.
7:What dates from 2013 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
✯-that would be 8th of May that was my birthday because my sister from NZ got home and brought with her another new member of the fambam. and 26th of December our post anniversary dinner date was superb.
8:What was your biggest achievement of the year?
✯-hmmm. i got my first job.
9:What was your biggest failure?
✯-i failed to be strong. charrLuung.
10:Did you suffer illness or injury?
✯-thankfully none, only the usual dysmenorrhea and sinus attacks.
11:What was the best thing you bought?
✯-Oooo! i bought myself an iPod touch 5th gen last year. i was a happy penguin that day..exactly 28th of Feb 2013 :D
12:Whose behaviour merited celebration?
✯-mine.
13:Whose behaviour made you appalled?
✯-wait what?

14:Where did most of your money go?
✯-clothes and food. mostly food.

15:What did you get really, really, really excited about?
✯-i got excited last August when me and bff stayed for a night in a beautiful hotel..It was very peaceful and lovely..and twas our first night swimming together!.

16:What song will always remind you of 2013?
✯-We are the world
17:Compared to this time last year, are you: (a) happier or sadder? (b) thinner or fatter? (c) richer or poorer?
✯-happier, fatter, richer! because im all postive vibes now..
18:What do you wish you’d done more of?
✯-more quality time wit my family.
19:What do you wish you’d done less of?
✯-procrastinating.
20:How did you spend Christmas?
✯-it was a happy Christmas..although frankly, i always feel half empty during the most wonderful time of the year..hahah..anywei next question please..
21:Did you fall in love in 2013?
✯-fell in love since 2005
22:What was your favourite TV program?
✯-i barely sit and watch TV these days
23:Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
✯-im guessing yes, i hate her but at the same time i dont care because she's just a waste of my time. but i hate her..
24:What was the best book you read?
✯-omg. the fault in our stars!!.
25:What was your greatest musical discovery?
✯-hmmm.
26:What did you want and get?
✯-i wanted the itouch badly and i got after two months after wanting it badly..hahah
27:What did you want and not get?
✯-and by the end of the year i wanted to buy a laptop and didn't get it on purpose..must set priorities.
28:What was your favourite film of this year?
✯-FROZEN. dyuu wanna build a snuumeen! <3
29:What one thing made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
✯-what made my year immeasurably satisfying is the time when i always feel how God gave me people to push me to my dreams, to guide me where not to go, to inspire and love me as well. i just feel so unimaginably blessed.
30:How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2013?
✯-it's somehow improving..haha!.
31:What kept you sane?
✯-im always insane.
32:Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
✯-Jennifer Lawrence
33:What political issue stirred you the most?
✯-the time when Yolanda hit our country and there was a slow respond of help from the government. I know im not in the place to complain but there was a hundred of other countries who have extended help already but our own gov't was busy being a crap.
34:Who did you miss?
✯-Kuya.
35:Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2013.
✯-Last year i learned that you must not involve yourself into something in which you are not happy. Be it on a bad relationship, a crappy lifestyle, a job you don't like, anything, because life is short and nothing is worth it if you are not happy.
36:Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
✯-I got the eye of the tiger, the fire dancing through the fire
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
'Cause I am a champion, and you're gonna hear me roar!

let's do this 2013!

Yesterday marked the beginning of a brand new year, it was just then that i realize to make a little "new year's resolution" just in case i wanted to improve my life this year. I've heard that you don't need New Year to change the way you live, you can always change and start something good anytime but who cares today is where my new chapter begins and the rest is still unwritten. I may not be able to do everything i will be listing here, anyway that's the point of listing it so that i can remember what i missed. Here are some of the to-do-list for this year, the must-change-bad-habits and the make-more-do-less stuff i would like to accomplish this year:

• Self loving! ♥~

I've always loved myself even from the past few years. how else can i love others if i haven't learned to love myself? However, this time i want to love meh self even more. I will enjoy more healthy foods, not to forget in drinking my vitamins, invest in some things that makes me pretty inside&&out,  be more connected to God, have the luxury of watching movies, enjoy quality time with myself alone, buy dresses that i feel comfortable with, reward myself for some hardwork and avoid overthinking. so that i can always keep smiling like t.:)

• Travel more (✿◠‿◠)

last 2012 i've only been to a few places like Camotes, Medellin, Badian, and a few nearby beaches and spots. This 2013 i wont promise to travel around the world but i  swear to travel more than possible. There are still many places i haven't been and i want to see it all . Im young, i dont have something holding me back. 

• Be productive and motivated everyday (this one is hard)

because im one lazy motherfather creature. Who has been the expert of procastination last year? 

i think half of my year is spent on the internet sometimes working but most of the times just wasting time on tumblr or facebook. This time i'll make it a habit to be more productive even if it just means reading a book, making a blog like this, make someone happy, draw something, hone my talents, spend time with my loved ones, cook a new dish or learn something new every single day. just so to make sure that days aren't wasted. i'll do my best to keep far away from the laptop and spend more time as a normal human being..:P

So i think there's not much to change about just these three important things. I dont want things to be detailed because it'll only make it harder to remember. I hope that this year will be a better year for me. I hope that as i move forward this year i'll be able to keep up with my resolutions so that when this year finally closes i will have many memories to look back.. Thank you Lord for giving me another year to make it right & i pray You wont get tired of giving me strength to face the thingsYou've in store for me this year. You're the best!:** Bring it on 2013!! 

caught up

A few months ago, i have been working on something that means a lot for me and my future.. I am a graduating student and as expected i got flooded by schedules, tortured with projects, fed up with home works and stuff like that.. It was okay for me at first because i was very eager to finish my studies, i ate all those deadlines and provided every requirements.. I got busy, very busy indeed.

I reminded myself that it'll get worse before it gets better, so i kept going not just for myself but more importantly for those people i don't want to fail. However, circumstances never quit teasing me, i guess God has been working on my patience and determination that up until now i have never acquired anything that'll ultimately pay off my efforts. I am not whining, i am not demanding God for what i've always wanted. i prayed, always praying.I never lose hope, although there were times that i lost motivation, i got tired, i got sick, i reached the point when i almost give up.. But i didn't.. i continued this never ending task and got so caught up with it. I was very occupied that i almost forgot how rewarding it is to be lazy and i almost forgot the blissful feeling of having enough sleep -- i felt like a zombie. Regardless of all the efforts i have poured, i know everything will pay off maybe not now but in God's time. What i really wanted aside from a positive result, is just to end this hustle and bustle, delight in a peaceful day like this (the picture) and be able to appreciate every little blessing that life has to offer me..:)

there's always something to be thankful for

Life has no room for your whines and nobody likes to hear it either. Oftentimes we get so caught up with what we don't have that we forget what we actually have. Be grateful and have a sense of appreciation.

Every weekdays when i go to school i get to pass by unfortunate children sleeping in the streets, aside from wondering where their parents might be, I also wonder how they managed to survive a life like that. I myself cannot help but complain about my life especially if nothing seems right, however when i feel like whining i remind myself of those kids that gives me no right to complain about life. According to what i have heard, if you have food on your table, house for a shelter and clothes to wear you are 90% more blessed than others who have none. You cannot just always grumble why you don't have the latest fashion trends, others have nothing to wear; Don't even complain for waking up early for school, others are paying millions to extend their lives; You need to shut up complaining on how fat you are, others don't even have anything to eat. Stop complaining why you don't have an internet connection or why you don't have a pet unicorn, life is more than that. Count your blessings and be thankful for others are struggling to live the life you have now.

what the fact

i have, for the 8798643864124th time, been wanting to write a blog. I even attempted to make a diary and as expected, epically failed. What's good about blogging? idk. I just feel like i can write whatever i want, i can park my thoughts without any opinions needed and i can read it all over again when i reach my 80's or 90's--if i am still alive by then or if i can still read.

So since this will be my first post, i would like to make this a fun-fact-about-me kind of post. I will reveal, not at all everything, but some facts about me for nobody's sake. :D anyway, i'll rap everything up, if you call this rapping up..





˙·٠•●♥ 10 facts about my room ♥●•٠·.

my room is not huge. five huge persons wont fit in it.
my bed is not california-king-bed, it's just a single bed.
30% space of my room is occupied by stuff toys
i only got a laptop, a fan and a lampshade in my room.
of course, i got books under my small table.
the walls in my room, is covered with pictures.
the other side of the wall, is covered with random quotes.
i kept all my valuables in my closet w/c is just beside my bed.
i have glow-in-the-dark sea creatures stuck in the ceiling
i clean my room during weekends so its always clean, i hate messy rooms.


·٠•●♥ 9 facts about my family ♥●•٠·.

i have two elder sisters, both already have kids, i am teh youngest..
i have a father, which is a seaman.
i have a mother, which a humble housewife.
so, mother&father is separated for some reasons i dont care.
father only visits once a year since the rest of the months is spent on ship.
eldest sister is living with her own family.
second sister got lost in New Zealand.
so it is only me&my mom.
scattered as it is, we still love&care for each other as a whole.


·٠•●♥ 8 facts about my body ♥●•٠·.

for the record, i weigh less than 40llbs.
i am 5ft tall.
asthma is one sickness my body is trying to get rid of.
my body cannot stand long in a cold weather.
i dont have a third eye or 6th finger, everything is normal.
i dont have a tatto or any extra piercing, i'd want a belly pierce though.
my hair and my eyes is my only asset.
i have this birthmark w/c is shaped like the map of Bohol.


·٠•●♥ 7 facts about my childhood ♥●•٠·.

i have the most boring childhood in the history.
i was not allowed to play too much because of my asthma.
i stopped going to school when i was in grade 3 because of asthma.
i was sent to the hospital thrice because of my stupid asthma.
i'm the kid you use to see with crayons and coloring book.
i grew up very well taken care of, my body is almost fragile.
someone is not there to see me grow. no regrets.


·٠•●♥ 6 facts about my bestfriend ♥●•٠·.

i met a girl in highschool which has mutual stupidity as mine.
we started calling each other "beastfriends" since the day we started sharing our melodramatic lives.
we separated when we apply for a university, we took the same course but we weren't in the same batch.
she's a registered nurse now.
we go out sometimes for church.
she's fat. and i love her. :D


·٠•●♥ 5 facts about my parents ♥●•٠·.

they are separated. how many times do i have to say this. :P
my mom never taught me to hate my dad.
my dad never told me why i should hate him.
they've been like that since i was not born.
and it was not resolveed up until now.


·٠•●♥ 4 facts about my hometown ♥●•٠·.

not to be rude, but i dont like the environment where i grew in.
surrounded with bad influences
dirty place
my house is inculcated in a place where nightmares happen. the place would've been better if people change.


·٠•●♥ 3 facts about my personality ♥●•٠·.

i treat people by the same treatment i get from them.
i am usually the cheerful one, i smile like a piranha.
i am not plastic, but rather being mature enough.


٠•●♥ 2 facts about my favorite thing ♥●•٠·.

laptop is one of my favorite things.
i put extra care on my favorite things. i barely share it or lend it to others.


٠•●♥ 1 fact about the person i like ♥●•٠·.
he is blind.






that was quite a lot. i wonder how many of these things i've mentioned would change until i read this one again..